2019 Update

Hey all..
So I haven't kept to nothing I planned due to you know, not being ready or in my creative mind and all that jazz. However I do intend to keep doing these updates so you know I'm still here and so I can write in the future (Soon!!) in a creative positive mind set and place. However I know I'd of lost a lot of followers so being able to put a schedule in place is important to build that again. I'm going to write some ideas down and work on some writing and tips to post here! I hope if your still here and reading you'll follow me in the future.
Thanks all :)

New Content? New Schedule! Massive Update! Welcome

Hello everybody, to people who still come here to read my posts every once in a while, and for those of you who are new. Yes, new, so! Due to a new job I've taken up to help support myself; and of course my makeup obsession! Recently I've also been thinking about starting my youtube back up. My usual camcorder has been sold but a new job is coming up soon and I'm hoping after getting some things I need to sort out done, I could get some recording equipment. Till then, my good old phone and very basic editing skills should help me through. So this job,I have become a Oriflame Consultant. I've never done nothing like this before but I'm hoping my passion for makeup can help me through this journey.Now like any dream job, it's flexible to myself, and all at home! Which means you don't have to be near by for me to help you with an order, or show you the products, or for you to join my Facebook group and join in with raffles, giveaways, updates on new offers and so much more every single week! Facebook group:https://www.facebook.com/groups/418357235255200/
Also, if you want to support me and have any support or help with your orders from me, you can use this link to purchase your items through the website! 
Of course I'm going to tell you what my next video idea is, and it's going to be a whole face of makeup using sample makeup, from Oriflames products! This may take a couple of weeks until I actually post it, but that's because I'm planning on doing a giveaway with a whole ton of sample products for the winner to try out.
Keep your eyes peeled guys, this blog is about to blow up.Now I'm changing our old schedule completely! Posts will be up 2-3 times per week. [I'm not sure what days yet]They will include the latest trendy makeup or products about, offers going on with Oriflame and samples with photos and my opinion. Then, for those who haven't joined my facebook group yet, current giveaways and raffles going on!
Check out my online beauty store here:http://beautystore.oriflame.uk/3275210
Here is some of the offers Oriflame have out in their latest catalog!

Diet Plans|Veganism|Goals| New Theme For A While?!

Hey guys, so I know it's been a while but I've finally moved and will be starting to upload new videos soon, but more importantly I'm currently working things out to go on a diet, which hopefully I can convert to Veganism within time. Set myself goals, and use this blog as my base for a while?

So you may be wondering what I mean by a while.. I want to get myself use to a diet then try to convert into Veganism and bring you all on my journey. I'm giving myself a year to convert and hit my first goals to get me going. Which means I would like to post for a year every so often, even if it's as little as once a month. I will of course try to add more than that and start writing pre-posts again. Once I've eased myself into it and found a better schedule maybe I will start posting a few beauty things a long the way, I know my youtube will be. I would also like to bring some of my life style changed into my youtube Channel so if anyone is interested in seeing that, keep your eyes peeled!

So this was a little update for yall and some things you may be seeing soon.. If you want to be part of it I am thinking on posting a chat box up on this blog so we can all speak about it and progress and ideas and give love and support!

See ya all soon, XOXO

2017... Back in time?| NO MORE SCHOOL?! EVER?!

Hey people!
Well I mean, if there is anyone reading there?
If so, I guess I owe you a little explanation on my recent or should I say very un recent lack of activity,
All I can really say is the truth, my new (second new infact) laptop has broken, and I've only just managed to get back into the whole use of computers and laptops. Cliche I know, but there's more.
This entire time I have not only been bettering myself but working on a load of things to upgrade my confidence. Get experience, meet new people and decide my path of education as I am now 16 guys and honestly I must say I am still slightly unsure but if I need to go back and do things or change my mind I will because I rather do that than stress too much over it.
I also left school/a course with a load of good people and I thank them greatly for their coping mechanisms with me because my God I was defiantly not the easiest or appropriate student. It made it so easier going there and seeing the workers and teachers there as friends and positives outlets on life. I am forever grateful for everything they done for me and for putting up with me when my school decided not too. Just being there when everyone else wasn't, got me through some toughest of days without them ever realising it. Thank you if you ever see this, I wish you the best future. Good luck with your careers all, and Baldy, keep up the maths! Thanks for looking out for us all. And other baldy with glasses :)
As for the Kelly Holmes Trust Project that I went on for a short period of five weeks, I owe you everything. Okay so that sounds SOOO dramatic! But you would never understand if you didn't try it out.. They aren't like every other basic ass course. They do so much and the people I met there have seriously impacted my life in ways you could never imagine. I will always be there for you guys because you got me through the darkest of days and you're still here after everything! I felt a connection with you all and it was seriously a pleasure to work and complete challenges with you, I would of never pushed myself to do even half the things you guys helped me through and now I can say I've done it and YES of course I would do it again! Also if any of you do see this for whatever reason, I'm planning on making a post dedicated to everything to do with the course and you guys as individuals and as a group so maybe check back soon? :)

AND.... (the heck there's more??)
Of course I'm going to be posting again. But I'm due to move and start my next path of education pretty much in June. I am still going to try my best to post but with a twist, I'm going to be posting updates of my educational paths and helping those younger than myself understand the importance of picking a path and how to find it, even if I got to find support forums or even, make one myself. That's right! Make one myself, on this blog so you guys can interact with eachother! Crazy right?

OHH ANDDDDD..
I've looked back and realised I've pretty much lost the theme of this blog but I do like the variety because it means I can change to anything I'm into at the moment keeping me in line to write and hopefully for you guys to read. But on that note, a big part of my life STILL is beauty, and my makeup collection well its got a little cram packed with drugstore products. So with that I'd love to tell you every week I post atleast one of the posts will be beauty based keeping theme!

LAST BUT NOT LEAST, and excitingly...
You see that description about the blog at the top? Well it's said Youtube coming soon for a while now and I've kind of got a channel... with videos, that i post every week or two. Including hauls, collections, and more! If you guys want to see that then pretty soon when I start getting views again and I re-arrange the blogs appearance to something a little more modern, I will pop the link up there for you guys to check out and subscribe if you would like!

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR STILL BEING HERE GUYS, I LOVE YOU ALL

Busy Busy Busy

Hey guys so I remembered a while ago me and my friend made a blog about an online game known as stardoll, it really needs updating and stuff and it was such a popular blog with over a hundred posts! We made videos for it and all sorts, we really customized it well and it was great! One problem.. I can't remember the password or email and we haven't posted since 2014! It could really do with a lot of updates but since we can't get in there yet its just a long proccess that we're working really hard to achieve.
Other than that I've joined Cadets, and have had a few exams that I think I've failed and my asthmas all over the place I guess what I'm trying to say is I'm way too busy to be posting right now. But as soon as I'm at a place where I will be able to consistantly post I will get straight onto it!
I hope you're all doing well and I hope to speak to you all soon, see you guys as soon as I can!:)
- Tara

Looking for A Job& New Youtube Videos| Back to YouNow?

Hello everyone,
so I haven't posted in quite a while but here is why.
I am currently looking for a job in order to save up for future things and to be able to go out, experience more things and to have a little more of a 'purpose' I guess you could say.
I have new videos up on my channel, they are not edited to the best of my abilities if at all, but that is because I've purchased the camcorders but am yet to become familiar with them enough to use them for better quality e.t.c.
Anyway, I have decided that over the next couple of weeks, as I am hoping to get a job based at home in my office, it would be appropriate of me to begin doing live videos on younow again! I enjoyed speaking with everyone and building a bigger audience. I met new youtubers, bloggers and even made a pen pal!
When I next decide to go live, I will make a post letting you all know what day and time so we can all speak and you can tell me what you want to see from this blog, as we all know I tend to change the theme a lot.
Also I am planning on cutting the posts down to once or twice a week, which would make it easier to keep on schedule, but don't worry! You wouldn't be missing out as I would happily put in a lot more information and photos for you all.
Have a good day everyone,
- Tara

Experiences| Confidence Building (Sunday)

Hello fellow bloggers!
Just something real quick before we start,
I haven't yet decided what I'll be changing things around too on the blog eg, themes and days.
Until I do, I'll be following what's currently posted, hence Build your Confidence Monday!
Anyway, I decided because I haven't actually wrote any experiences, even though I say I will in the title, I would do an experience with a lack of confidence I've had and hopefully you'll be able to relate! If not, that's okay because you may be able to relate to one of the other posts or one I post in future. Everybody is different hey?
Today I'm going to write about one that I think we probably all had a few confidence issues with, but here is my point of view.

'The Last Day of Primary School

and

First Day of Secondary School'

I will not lie to you. Lets go back a couple months. I had always been happy in primary school. It was kind of four of us in the entire class who were, well, 'more advanced' than the rest and we always sat together and done work together and help the teachers out. We was all excited to go to secondary school together, we didn't want to leave eachothers side! So, about a month before we left primary, everything changed. There was new girls, and there were arguments. I kind of got left. The only thing that didn't change was the other two boys that sat on the table with us. It left me with no friends, except the boys in class of course. But slowly we became distant. The girls wouldn't lay off. Then the rest was quite a blur but one of the girls were picking on my baby brother and he was/is my everything. I stormed out of the big kids play yard to the little kids yard, I pushed her over and grabbed my little brother and walked around the school where we werent allowed. I ignored all the teachers shouting and running after us. I picked him up and walked home. Quite frankly this was the point when everything changed. I realised I had the power to do whatever I wanted, and that I wasn't going to take shit of anyone. When I was to be picked up the next day, a bunch of angry parents were in the office including my mam. I wondered why and then they all told me how 'Tara-lee is a fat slut' was wrote on the school gates. Nobody ever admitted to that. Sir tried to protect them. He was denying that they were bullying me to my mother, 'as Taras never mentioned it' but lets face it. I was a scared little kid and every time you tried to tell a teacher something you'd always get 'Stop telling tales go play' so all you really could do is go home and tell your mam or dad or nan. It wasn't until the day before the last that Sir realised I was being bullied. I'm not sure how but he did and he made a big speach infront of the class saying the ones who were doing it were not welcome back into the school, ever. Then clearly the guilty ones broke down in tears and stuff. I spent the last day with the boys and we were allowed to help sir which sounds kinda lame but in primary that was like a privilege. 

The next bit is personal to me, but I'm going to try and be open and share this with you guys so that you may be able to relate/understand more. I felt in year six as if I was more mature than anyone else. I had my first set of suicidal thoughts. I kept having negative thoughts. I had tantrums, I was already on the laptop speaking to people. I had a strong passion for 'reading and correct grammar' so it came as a shock to others, but not me when I self harmed for the first time. I'm not sure what possessed me to do it. But regaurdless I did it. Little did I know that, that one mistake, that one low moment would lead too the next four years of misery, still ongoing. 

The holiday I spent on my laptop. Listening to Mayday Parade like I still do today. With the whole money making schemes and youtubers.

It was the big day. The first day of secondary school. But it was different for me as I got put into a secondary school away from the kids that bullied me in primary. So I started somewhere with no friends. Nobody I knew there except my cousins. One had already been there for a year and had all her friends and life sorted, the other was started the same time as me but he had friends from primary and he was good looking, which put him to the top straight away. I on the other hand, was very very overweight, unattractive and a little bit, well depressed. My cousin was really nice to me and brought me to a big group of girls that tried to speak to me but I could feel that they knew I was a bit, off. I walked away and stood on my own holding back the tears as I was the only child stood alone, also I was scared of people looking at me and my repulsive body. I was ashamed. I now regret ever walking away from them girls. They were the pretty, most popular girls of my year. They got a really strong bond and to think I could of been part of that sucks. 
I guess though, now it's been four years that things have changed I never would of thought back then that I'd be the person I am now with the friends and experiences I've had till this very day.
Don't dwell on the past or present, think about how great things can go in the future because that's the only thing in the long run that's going to keep you motivated and going!